Not Falling Apart

I'm not falling apart,
I just miss you a bit,
Not breaking up more
Than circumstances permit.

I'm not pushing this down,
I just can't let it burn.
I can't find strength to break,
Now that I have to learn,

Saying 'I love you too'
To someone who's dying.
Smiling for what we had,
So far beyond crying.

Learning to hold the hand,
Of someone who won't heal.
I'll squeeze into your heartbeat,
But I refuse to feel.

Though I love you too much,
Though it's going to sting,
Without you I'm not broken,
I just don't feel a thing.     

I'm not crying that much,
I would drown it I did.
I'm not falling apart,
I just miss you bit,
Not breaking up more
Than circumstances permit,